Here we are, at the start of the new year, still overwhelmed with all the blessings God has given us when this happens. After all the year end planning with my wife, all the goal setting, God brings in a game changer. And having mixed emotions is an understatement.
SO WHAT NOW?
I honestly don’t know. The financial calculator in my head is still computing the kind of adjustment we would need for our 2020 budget. We still have the Online Shop to figure out and our desire to get a place on our own is on hold. My anxiety level is rising with every word I’m typing in.
Another baby is not that simple. And the idea of having two kids under our care is just unbelievable. Tala is already a handful, adding one to the mix is like torture. But that’s just the unreasonable me…because most of me is grateful and rejoicing.
BLESSING IN DISGUISE
Cliche as it may sound, I believe that it is a blessing for God to hinder whatever plans we have. That only means that He has something better planned out for us this year. A lot can be learned from our current situation, but mostly it’s a review of God’s essence and character.
SOVEREIGNTY AND LOVE
Who can hinder God’s plans? Isaiah 46:10 reminds us that God will accomplish everything He desires. Hearing that for the first time kinda makes God sound so unfair, but if we really understood His whole essence, we would know for sure that everything He desires is out of love! God is only capable of good things, and if He intends for us to have another kid in the midst of our financial turmoil, then we have to trust Him! If you have no relationship with God through Christ, then this will never make sense…but believe me, God would always push through with us, the people He chose in eternity past, in mind to bring glory to Him! His sovereign plan engulfed in His undying love for us is the best
ISN’T THIS YOUR FAULT TOO?
Everything we do has a corresponding consequence…whether it was intentional or not. In our case, we did not intend it but we were careless to not even take precautionary measures. But the point I want us to understand is that even in our most careful state, God still has the final say. The discussion about God’s sovereignty and omniscience in this kind of format will just reel in a debate, so let me conclude my thoughts.
IN EVERYTHING GIVE THANKS
Yes, in everything be grateful and acknowledge God’s perfect timing! We don’t have the ability to turn back time and try to do things differently the second time around…but God did give us grace and mercy to walk through the struggle with Him. My wife and I will always be thankful for this gift…and we offer up everything to Him Who has created all things!